It's been like eons, livejournal.. How ya doing?! Wait a minute, you're just a website... Not so fun to talk to... Uhhm...
How about the random people who read this.. or... used to read it when I actually posted things?!!? How ya------- wait, no one's ever read this thing.
Why am I writing this then? Oh well.. I guess I'll just talk to myself like I usually do.
Yeah, it's been a long long time, right now I'm sitting at work completely bored, listening to random One Piece musics, and having absolutely nothing better to do, so I figured I'd pass a little time and actually write something into here. What's it been, really? Like a year or more? It's at LEAST been that, I don't think I've done a post since before I got together with Hannah, and our one year anniversary is coming up in a week from today. Wow, how am I going to write about everything that's happened in the past year? x.x
This calls for a montage!!!
*shows bunches of random scenes of a guy starting out as a weakling and training and stuff to inspirational music, slipping in the occasional scene to make someone giggle but then going right back to the training, making it seem as of much struggling took place, and a lot of time as passed, ending it with a picture of the stronger guy who was the weakling as the scene fades out and it makes it appear more time has passed*
So, yeah, that's what's happened in the last year! Awesome, wasn't it?
Really, it's been about the best year of my life overall. ^^ I came up with a theory back a bit after my last post I put on here, that the more depressed people are the more they're inclined to post in their livejournal. At least that's true of me. A theory which I'm undoing as I make this very post, but shh. Amazing, great, wonderful, beautiful, and other such good adjectives have happened, as well as (more recently) a few horrible things, but I'm still quite happy, even though things are a bit rough right now. Guess since I never have before since I haven't posted for a year, I'll explain Hannah.. ^^
We met long, long ago at an anime club far, far away. Though that's not when we really got to know each other. Don't know if we even ever said anything to each other then. She was dating a friend of mine at the time, well, sorta friend, not a close one or anything. More an aquaintence than anything. We both remember seeing each other that day though, and feeling as if the other were important somehow.. ^^ Come a few months later, I had goten into Gaia, anime-themed forum place. Anime club peoples had made their own little thing on there, and I'd always talk there randomly and the like. Eventually Hannah got onto it, found me there, added me to her MSN messenger list, and we started talking, a coversation that went on until 6am the next morning (with a seeing of Van Helsing in the theatre between it), and well, more or less, the conversation never ended even then. We talk... unnaturally ^^ I'm fairly certain we've spent more time together and talked more than most 50 years married couples.. Only one problem with it all, which would be the problem that would nearly undo it. Hannah's 15, though by no means at all any sort of normal teenager, anyone who's ever had the pleasure of being graced by her would tell you that. And I'm 21 -.- I was meant to be a few years younger, be born a few years later. All my friends are still in high school, though the majority of them only have like a month left before it's over. And so is the girl I feel I've really found true love with, before her I "thought" I was in love a couple of times, but I promise everyone who hasn't found it for themselves yet, that it's a completely different feeling when it's real. ^^ A feeling I've had for almost an entire wonderful year now, and one that I don't have to question is going to be with me for the rest of my life. You don't just feel some illusion of happiness. You feel the whole spectrum of human emotion shot into you all at once, scrambling all that you are, and you merge with your other person. You become a part of one another, you feel their emotions as strongly as your own, and you can sense almost in a way a mother can sense things about her children just what is happening to the other. You don't need to be with them to feel them there with you, you don't need to talk to them to know what they have to say, their happiness brings you as much happiness as your own, or more.
Mm, but enough mushy stuff ^^ Shortly after we got together, her mother of course found out about it, and forbid us to see one another, becuase I'm a big scary 21 year old.. =/ We nearly just decided to give it up and wait, but neither of us could do it. So we spent the first few months of our relationship online, every now and then sneaking off to a movie together, we both going seperately, and just "HAPPENING" to both be at the same movie. Her parents had never seen me before, so it was quite easy. After a while of being tricksy in such ways, we decided to gamble, put it all on the line for a chance to be happy, and somewhat normal together. We called me by my middle name, Wesley, and claimed I was 18, as opposed to 21. Hardly any different as far as I see it, both just as "illegal". All of it being so that her parents could see me as a person, for who I was, and not just an age. They bought it completely, and we spent the longest, and best times of our lives together.
Over the recent spring break, we were found out. Her parents found a notebook she was writing a letter to me in, and everything we'd worked up came crashing down, I think mostly because that was how they found out. If we had told them ourselves, maybe it would have turned out differently, who knows.. But it's the way things ended up being meant to be, so we've dealt with it. Of course we were forbidden to see each other again, and this time they know everything about me. Her dad called and threatened to have me arrested if I saw her again, my mom tried ot talk to him herself.. He threatened to have the same happen to her, and said she had no right to call making threats to him..................... She didn't x.x She said nothing threatening whatsoever, he made her cry like I've never seen her cry before. He made me cry like I've never known me to cry before, and Hannah got the worst of it of all. They took away everything she enjoyed, computers, video games, everything. For a couple weeks there was nothing for her but her bed and her overflowing bad emotions. She called me a few times in the first few days, only to be found out by her mom by hitting the redial button. We lost everything, but we're both strong, both just crazy enough. :) By no means did we give up. We coordinated things through friends, they would call her, relay things she'd say through the internet, and tell her all I'd say. She'd call me on friends' cell phones at lunch, and we eventually devised a way we could see each other again. At her lunch time, she slips away with the crowd over to a nearby friend's house, and I'm there before she gets there, with my car parked far away. ^^ We've kept that sort of thing up for quite a while now, had no problems with it at all, her parents don't even know when her lunch time is. It's not a lot, but I love every moment of it. After some time had passed her parents gave her back her laptop, but without the internet card in it. We're craftier than that though ;) She went and bought a silver USB memory stick, and I went and bought her a USB wireless internet card which looks exactly like the memory stick. So now, apart from lunch times, we practically have an online relationship. A good, wonderful strong one. And we're waiting out the two years until she's 18 and we can be together again.
Every day we're together, every time we see each other, I put my life on the line. I risk ruining the rest of my life and going to jail. But it's worth it entirely to me. More than worth it..
So, there's my real montage.. That's been the majority of my past year. Only other major events have come through happenings in my adventures in video games, particularly MMORPGs :P Currently playing WoW.. and Guild Wars.. and stuff. Nothing really interesting I can write about all that.. ^^ Nothing really interesting I can write about at all anymore at this point, my fingers are getting pretty tired, and my brain's running out of things to say..
So, I'll leave it with that.. See you somewhere between another day and another year, livejournal.. ^^